Through His Eyes
I’m working on a “Little Black Book” for my husband for our 15th Anniversary this month. You may wonder why I chose this for my 1st Photo for my 2013 to Fit Again.
There’s so much more than just food and exercise that goes into a fitness journey; there’s a mental and emotional side as well. And if you ask me, it’s half the battle. As I was skimming through the photos for my husband (heh hum, some I couldn’t, or wouldn’t, post) I had to view the photos, and my body, in a way that he would see them. He’s always told me how beautiful I am, no matter what my weight. I usually roll my eyes, but most of the time I take his compliments and smile. Deep down, some days I feel it, some days… not so much.
As I viewed these photos, FOR HIM, AS HIM, I saw beauty. I saw a plump girl who looked pretty sexy! Surprisingly I was walking away thanking myself for doing this, not for him, but for me. For the first time EVER I was able to see myself in new light. I think I look HAWT even heavier. Not to say I’m giving up on my weight loss efforts, but if I can fully accept and love myself now I find the pressure lifting to do the “right” thing. I find I’m not as hard on myself. What’s that about?
Have I admitted to loving myself and accepting my body recently but deep down I really haven’t? I mean… I knew I wasn’t 100% there, but until these photos I have never felt this way – this relief. Even in the photos I can’t share in which I’m revealing a lot more, I found beauty in a way I never have before.
I always thought acceptance of my body would take practice by saying the words “I love and accept my body NOW” over and over. Of course avoiding damaging cut downs doesn’t hurt either. I never thought seeing myself through someone else’s eyes (in this case my husbands, and who could love me more?) would be a turning point, or feel like a big turning point anyway.
Do you fully accept your body? Have you ever wished you could see what other’s see?