February 14 – 20, 2011
10am nap (1 1/2 hours) (O-U-T!)
Energy felt better after nap
9:30 am 15 min. elliptical – 130 to 140 SPM, Avg. HR 126 (max 138)
5 isometric squats (5 sec. holds)
Ankles felt swollen after, energy waned for the rest of the day
Post Workout Supplements: 5 Gr. D-Ribose, 2 Gr. Vitamin C
Post Meal: 1/2 scoop protein, 1/4 cup oats, 1/4 cup blueberries, 1 egg, 1/4 cup egg whites
Energy very low and extremely emotional. Stayed in bed until 2:30pm! TOM arrives by bed time. Hmmmm…..
Chiro visit accompanied by a very painful b-complex shot!
Spent the day helping husband at the shop – very light work – running a couple errands and some very light house cleaning.
I felt more clear minded and stable all day = hopeful!
7:30 pm 20 min. elliptical – 125-130 SPM, Avg. HR 119 (max 136)
Post Workout Supplements: evening vitamins (too many to list)
Post Meal: 4oz. beef tenderloin, couscous, caesar salad, 1/2 cup squash
Moving workouts to the evenings in hopes resting for a long period (via sleep!) after will help with energy reserves – strategy!
Rested. Enjoyed my brother’s Birthday party. Retired at midnight.
5:30 pm about 20 or 30 min. playing!
I under ate today, but I was never hungry. My energy was “okay”. Around 5pm my daughter asked me to go play with her outside. Thinking THIS is what life’s all about, I accepted her request. We jumped on the trampoline, only for a few minutes. We threw the Frisbee to the dog… And when she asked me to partake in a game she had made up that required running, I was happy to oblige her. Our time was minimal (under 30 minutes) but indispensable.
THIS WEEK: I’ve noticed I’ve been getting more done during the days and I don’t feel the weight of this heavy fog hanging over me as much. I still have a hard time waking, and I’m also still relying on naps most days. I am getting in touch with my emotions more – crying a LOT. I’m not sure if this is hormonal, or me finally coming to terms that I NEED to let these feelings out more. I can’t keep bottling up and stuffing down how I feel, even if I KNOW they aren’t rational, etc. My emotions are deserving of being felt.