I’m entering “fake it ‘til you make it” mode (dangerous). I really hate this mode, where nothing comes “easy”, but the fear of falling into the “I’ll do it tomorrow” trap keeps me going. Someone on my board brought up the point about it being due to my breaking my 200 barrier. That could very well be what it is. It seems I will NEVER get there. Of course I KNOW that’s not the reality of it. It’s just hard to fight those types of feelings.
I’m looking in the mirror and what I see is definitely not reflective of the scale. I’m seeing even more definition in my arms, my abs, my middle, and my legs. This is REALLY what I want, right? I mean seriously, if I could just LOOK the way I see myself in my mind and still weigh 203 I’d be happy! I’d be extremely muscular, but I’d be happy!